All of the sudden I'm finding myself in this totally crazy new environment. Mama and Daddy are nowhere to be seen, Hou and Savannah are surely not present, and Lexie, Laura, Jesseca, and Julianne are memories from the past. And all of this is bad enough, but then we add in the fact that I don't really want to be here right now. I mean, the University of Idaho is great for a lot of people, but I'm seriously starting to doubt if it is right for me. Because, let's face it, it is a huuuuuuuuge party school, and anyone who knows me at all knows that I have not and neeeeeeever will party. It's just not who I am.
And if we're being honest I am a total homebody. Not like I never leave home, but more like I love my home. I miss everything about being in Idaho Falls -- my bedroom, my family, my pets, driving, Kiwi Loco, my friends, you name it. And here in Moscow I just don't feel like I belong anywhere. I have never felt like such an outcast in my life. I used to be Sydney Moore, honor student from Idaho Falls with a quiet sense of humor, lots of friends, and a deep love for the outdoors and country music. But now I just feel like Sydney, that quiet girl who reads in her dorm all day, doesn't drink or swear, and is the biggest redneck since Larry the Cable Guy.
But I know that I am just going to have to learn to take it day by day. After all, this is only temporary. I just need to do what Mama always says and, "Put a smile on my face and fake it til I make it."
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